The Final Day
For those of you who have come to know me and my quirky bites of slightly sarcasmic storytelling (alliteration at it’s finest!)), this one’s going to be off my beaten path.
When I first began blogging for AFitnessConnection.com, one of the issues that was discussed was how personal I wanted to get. My original intent was to write totally batshit crazy stuff under a fictitious name so that privacy wouldn’t be an issue.
However, we decided I should remain me, Lil’ Miss Chris, the insomniac who thinks too much and eats under stress (this week has been sinfully gluttonous). Anyways, I’ve got enough craziness and drama just being myself.
So on a more personal and serious note, I’ve decided to share with you something I wrote earlier this week. I initially only showed it to a few of my closest friends, but upon hearing their reactions, I decided to make it public. A good friend and moderator of this site told me I was crazy to do so. But, yeah – I am a bit crazy and I thought we had already established that.
THE FINAL DAY
Today is the last day of my marriage.
I am very sad. Sad for all of us. You, my husband, never see me cry. I will not cry to you, for you are the reason I am crying in the first place.
But I do cry, as I have been crying all morning.
I cry for the two young people we were. The beautiful young couple
filled with high hopes, dreams, and innocence.
I cry for the loss of those two people. They have been destroyed, dreams shattered.
Out of the destruction came our beautiful innocent daughter, for whom we need to establish a new, successful relationship.
So today I mourn the loss of the two people we used to be. We shall put to rest a failed marriage. It needed to come to an end, so we can leave behind all the hate, betrayal, hurt, and lies – for all those feelings were part of our marriage. Put the bitterness behind us and make it part of the past.
This chapter has come to an end.
Tomorrow is a new beginning. A fresh start. Take a deep breath and move forward. This is our second chance, for our daughter’s sake, to make it right……as the friends we once were.
Chris
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A said this on April 30, 2008 at 7:28 pm |
Very personal poem. I believe it is true for many people. Thanks for sharing.
Matt said this on April 30, 2008 at 9:47 pm |
Tough to read this, but thank you for sharing these thoughts.
Dave said this on May 1, 2008 at 1:07 am |
Yea tough to read but everyone needs a release so i guess this must be yours!
Biggun08 said this on May 1, 2008 at 1:28 am |
Thank you for sharing this. I was so touched, I felt obliged to respond.
Despite its sadness, your story is very beautiful and has left me with an air of optimism. Clearly you have lost something very precious. In sharing this, and revealing the raw tenderness that you feel, you show great inner strength and beauty. I feel optimistic about the future for you and your daughter as you begin the ‘First Day’ of your new life. I hope it is a day filled with joy, and that there will be many, many more such days.
Paul (all the way from London) said this on May 1, 2008 at 1:04 pm |
I absolutely love all your blogs. I think you have become an asset to afitnessconnection, they are lucky to have such a great story teller like yourself. When you get an opportunity to be vulnerable makes you human and we can all relate. Thanks for sharing such a private matter.
raytoon said this on May 1, 2008 at 1:47 pm |
I want to thank all of you for the kind, compassionate words.
Writing has been very therapeutic for me. When I look back upon entries from my personal, private journal, it helps me to see just how far I have come emotionally.
I’ll try not to make you guys cry anymore.
lilmisschris said this on May 1, 2008 at 5:47 pm |
everything happens for a reason missy! Just like Afitnessconnection and you met for a reason this happend for a reason. Its all a path set just take the road and go with the flow!
A said this on May 2, 2008 at 12:52 am |
Chris, absolutely beautiful. Most people can’t seem to find those feeling within themselves. Remember as each door closes, another opens with even greater opportunity ahead. Your shining personality will take you through this difficult time and you will come out a better and even stronger person when it is over.
djquad103 said this on May 5, 2008 at 12:46 pm |