A Look Back and Catching Up

October 9, 2008

It’s past 2 am in the morning. Insomniac blogging once again.

Oh, hi, t’s me again…lol…where the f*ck have I been? Seemingly living out of a shitcase, I mean suitcase (honest typo, thought ”shitcase” does seem to be just as appropriate - anyhow, the “u” and the “h” are very close on the keyboard, hence the typographical error), ..Living out of a shitty suitcase and travelling since the end of July.

It’s been so ridiculously long since I even logged on here, I forgot just what it is I do. I had to go back and read my very first post written… “Looking Good, Feeling Good – Gym Or Meat Market” ( http://lilmisschris.wordpress.com/2008/04/10/looking-good-feeling-good/). What a different person I was then, and that was only six months ago.

Yeah, I still wear lipstick to the gym, though now I could really give a flying rat’s fart if anyone notices. Yes, I bagged the only person that interested me way back in the early part of the year – the 21-year old beefcake there that I had my eye on.  In hindsight, it was the necessary rebound fling that gave me the jumpstart of confidence to get out of a miserable marriage. Mission accomplished. Case closed. Hence the inspiration for the blog that still receives the most traffic here, “Cougars, Milfs, And the Half Plus Seven Rule” (http://lilmisschris.wordpress.com/2008/03/31/cougars-milfs-the-half-plus-seven-rule/). ….you bunch of pervs and freaks who keep using the search term “milf”…. no offense meant. Without you youngun’s, the “milf” would not exist. Terms of endearment all around.

Oh, yeah. It’s starting to come back to me now, this whole blogging thing…..I believe I was half past buzzed on ambien and alcohol everytime i sat down in front of my laptop and started typing. So hang tight while I pour myself a shot of randomness in print….

          (….ahhhh, Sambuca….feel the burrrrrnnnnnn…….)

Then I clicked on over to the post that brought on the drama and put me out there as a serious writer and an open book, attracting an entirely different fanbase, “The Final Day” (http://lilmisschris.wordpress.com/2008/04/30/the-final-day/). Very touching, but uughhhhhh…..excuse me while I try and decide whether to puke or stick a hot poker in my eye.

click, click… onto “Divorce – A Child’s Happiness Vs. Personal Growth” (http://lilmisschris.wordpress.com/category/marriagedivorceparenting/) . Yup, definitely feeling the regurgiburp. We tried. Didn’t work. Now get out.

Aahh…Matty Ray, Boston…my long-distance summer hook-up……..”Friends With Benefits” (http://lilmisschris.wordpress.com/2008/05/26/friends-with-benefits/)… this is where it all started, huh? An inebriated hot mess one night in downtown Fort Lauderdale. If I were to write a follow-up to this, it would be titled, “Is Your Fucking Phone Broken?”

On a more realistic, serious note, it has been quite an experience - this whole long-distance relationship thing. One thing that still has not changed, is that I still don’t have room, emotionally or otherwise, for a serious relationship with someone who is too easily accessible. Without the distance and forced casualness, I probably wouldn’t have been able to focus on accomplishing all that I have accomplished in the past few months. However, it’s a nice feeling to know that there is someone who thinks I’m special, even if they live in the northeast region of the country and I’m down here in the land of hurricanes and non-English speaking women who wear their clothes two sizes too small…(WTF?). Hotels are fun as long as no one falls off the bed and gets hurt. ‘Nuff said. Miss you.

So in closing, over the course of the past EIGHT WEEKS….

• I turned a year (decade) older
• my daughter started first grade at a new school
• my ex and I have come to realize that he needs to move out, which he is now in the process of doing
• I competed twice and won my first pro show as an IFBB competitor (I covered it in my PHOTOJOURNAL on AFitnessConnection site – the link is up there on the right somewhere, under “Blogroll” category), 
• I’ve traveled to Jacksonville, Tampa, Orlando, Cleveland, New York, Atlantic City, and Las Vegas and seen the inside of more hotel rooms than I can count (“Lil Miss Chris 2008 Summer Tour”)
• I’ve made new friends and gotten to know old friends better (Dumon – you are TROUBLE!) 
• I’ve had many unforeseen twists, turns, surprises and first time experiences regarding the long-distance thingy that refuses to be termed ’relationship’ (we were originally just supposed to be nothing more than a random, out of town fling. Definitely confusing, yet interesting, how fling things evolved. I couldn’t make this shit up if I tried.)
• I picked up smoking again for about three weeks before quitting again
• I became a college student for about three weeks before realizing the timing wasn’t right (though the things I learned in those three weeks of class have been invaluable for an artist like myself)
• I have my own bank account again and paid my own bills for the first time since ‘99
• I’m shopping for a new car tomorrow
• my best friend just had a baby
• I’m starting a new job next week
• and the new season of Desperate Housewives has finally begun.

 These last two months have been one long adventure….. what a looonng, strange trip it’s been….      

So what’s next? Nothing tonight, but my pillow….it’s been nice catching up……it’s four A.M and the suitcases are now under my eyes….sleeptard on Sambuca….’caio.

                      

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~ by lilmisschris on October 9, 2008.